Monday, January 3, 2011

New Year, Same Old

So . I was just reading past blogs. Um. It has been a while since I have blogged.

since I'm aspiring to be a writer of some sort, I'm going to make it a point to actively blog at least ONCE a week. Hopefully it will help me create my own style and voice and all those things that good writers are supposed to have.

Well summary of the past year.

Um. Nothing much actually.. Other than me somewhat struggling with school just a tad. I don't remember Freshman year being so hard. So either I got stupider, or my classes just got harder and more demanding. I prefer to believe the latter.

and looking for jobs is HARD. Selling all your qualities without being obnoxious is definitely a skill.

I learn that people change, no matter how much they say they don't , they do. The person who you think you befriended is no longer the person you know. sometimes I think it's sad when people change. But sometimes it's good. especially if you ameliorate yourself. The world changes. there shouldn't be any reason not to change with it. It's called adaptation, survival of the fittest.

So would I say I have changed? oh definitely.

I find that I have grown up a lot since my Malaysian days. I definitely have learned to be more accepting of people. Just because they are not like me doesn't mean they're wrong. Different is just.. well, different. Furthermore, I think i have grown to be a little bit more open-minded. Okay scratch that. Let's make it MORE open-minded. I have learned that in life, some things don't matter. like the colour of your skin. or how much your family makes. Or where you're from. Really all the matter is how much you love yourself and others and what you make with that love. CLICHE i know. OVERUSED also but WHATEVER. It's true. Love is universal. Love knows no boundaries. -VERY overloaded with cheesiness but like i said.. so true-

maybe cheesiness is what all of us need. ;)

I realize that I miss my family less and less.. which BEFORE ANY OF YOU SAY ANYTHING. is good in a way. I love my family. (yes Jie and babe, even you) but missing someone or something is just so hard. especially when you know that you can't do anything about it. the distance is an obstacle. but my daddy BBMs me a lot (BLACKBERRY MESSENGER duh) and my sisters are always reachable. and mommy is just a telephone call away. Technology, I thank you.

I'm growing up. I notice more and more people are getting engaged. and soon. i will fall into that age group. And then the unfortunate stigma associated with it. GAH. Marriage. PSHAW. haha
People tell me I will get married but ... I can't see myself or the poor guy.. haha but we will see.. i'm not rejecting the idea of marriage. heck it's a tried and tested method. Obviously it works. but we'll see if it works for me.

I'm not out of stuff to say but I don't want to drag this out.

I realize my posts are pretty.. chunky. and jumpy.. but let's just say it's a poor mimicry of the "stream of consciousness" writing.. haha

Nanabanana. Out.


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