Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye My Friend, You Have Been the One For Me

I'm back in the United States..

Raw emotions and tears run freely whilst I'm here..

I think the second time around is harder. because you remember what you have been missing out at home for such a long time.. and when you remember.. it's harder to let go..

Like this time when i went home.. I remembered the warmth of a mother, the support of a dad, the closeness of a sister and the feeling of being home.. the nagging of the parents.. the annoying-ness of a sister.. and the unrelentless barking of a dog all sum up to make the house I live in a home..

So much has changed since i last saw home.. the furniture has changed.. the lifestyle has somewhat evolved but what makes the house a home has not.. it will probably stay the same till the end of my life..

So many things were said that should have been left unsaid.. Too many things that should have been said were left unsaid.. but isn't that the nature of life..

I am sooo groggy right now.. I look at pics and the pillow where i lay my head becomes water-logged.. the spot where i wipe my nose from and tears start to feel raw.. the tears on my pillow will dry.. and my skin will start to feel normal again.. but the longing in my heart to go home and STAY home.. is going to be here a while..

NanaBanana Misses Mi, Old Bean, Guan Zhi, Floss and all her cousins, aunty uncles, friends and those who are not mentioned.. =(