HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SANDRA YAM!!

I love you with all my heart..

You're the best friend I will always have..

P.S. Sorry.. this is the one of the few pictures of you on my camera.. GRR

What am I doing with my life?

So.. coming to college got me thinking..

What am I doing with my life? There are numerous options that I can take.. countless paths I can walk, but how am I suppose to choose the right one? Then, when I sit down and think about all the options that I can choose from, I start to think of the factors that go along with them..

~How much will I enjoy doing it? Am I going to make any money? Would I be able to support myself? Is it going to be a dreary job? What can I do with this degree? What if I don't enjoy what I do?

How in the world do people make choices that affect their whole life? The pressure is HUGE!! I CAN'T TAKE IT!!!! BLAAAAAHH!!

I wish I had insight into the future.. I wish I could see what I COULD be, and what I WILL be.. grr.. this is frustrating ...

I wish.. and wish.. but wishing ain't gonna bring me nowhere.. so.. what am I to do?

NanaBanana is faced with Peril.. yet again..

Seahawk Nation

Well.. things have been a little hectic here lately.. College is pretty sweet..

On monday.. we continued with orientation.. same ol same ol.. it was pretty straight forward.. then most importantly.. we signed up for classes!! here are the list of my classes this fall

~Western Civillization II
~Intermediate French (YES I PLACED INTO INTERMEDIATE FRENCH)
~Math III (damn math placement test)
~Bio + Lab
~Concert Choir
~Psychology

And on tuesday.. IT WAS BLEACH BLAAAAAAAAAASTT!!

the beach here is not comparable to the tropical beaches of Malaysia but you know what.. it wasn't bad at all.. the sun was intense though.. and i 've got the oddest tan lines.. >.< oh well.. what to do.. all in the name of good fun right?

Wednesday/Today

Classes start.. Omgawd.. my western civ. teacher is honestly one of the most flamboyant teachers i know.. In a good way.. he's so animated it's so interesting to watch him.. Note to self.. go introduce yourself to all your professors..

CHORUS WAS AMAZING.. First of all it was HUGE.. and 2nd of all. THE MALE SECTION WAS BIG AS WELL.. it was a BALANCED CHOIR.. it was amazing.. i met/heard some of the most accomplished singers i have ever heard. it was the highlight of my day.. and i suspect it WILL continue to be the highlight of my day every monday, wednesday and friday.. XD

MATH.. Let's save that for some other time.. it's such a frustrating situation.. sigh

NanaBanana is Thoroughly Enjoying College..

Go Seahawks!!

So.. I am here at UNCW!!! Home of the Seahawks!!

Just to let everyone know about my move-in experience, it was not as bad as I expected it to be..

FANTASY

I would have to lug all my luggage/boxes/stuff up the stairs by myself with the help of my family..

My room would be a total dumpster..

My bed would be falling apart.. and my furniture would be all termite-infested.

Bathrooms would be terribly gross..

REALITY

Volunteers in hundreds were outside my dorm waiting to grab stuff out of my hands.. LITERALLY.. they were like little tiny ant workers who were busying harvesting food for winter.. Only this time they were busy lugging stuff up to prepare us freshmen for our time here in college

My room is actually nice.. i like it.. its small. but its adequate.. my bed is high in the sky and i have a desk underneath.. saves a lot of space..

My bed is pretty sturdy.. surprisingly.. its a bunk without thebottom.. but still.. i was so afraid it was going to fall..

The bathrooms are small.. and honestly i like my bath space bigger.. lol.. but whatever.. and i think i like having my own toilet bowl to myself..

College is great so far.. I've met some great interesting people.. and i think i'm going to like it.. But right now.. with orientation and stuff.. im like.. OUT.. i'm soo tired.. i think i'm going to head up to my nest up high in the sky and do some snoring.. =D

NanaBanana is a Seahawk!

Teal is the official school colour!

So.. umm..

So the dorm "packing for college experience" is definitely a pain in my ass.. yea.. No fun.. honestly speaking.. how do you minimize your stuff into essentials? Isn't EVERYTHING ESSENTIAL?

like the pair of shoes you bought 2 days ago? well it's ESSENTIAL to go with the outfit you're going to wear to a dance, right?

Or the movies that you are bringing along.. EXCUUSE MEE!! You CAN'T FIND EVERYTHING online..

Or the stuffed toy your friend gave to you.. No doubt about it.. It's essential for cuddling with at night when your roommate decides to be a mean witch.. Yea

so pretty much.. ANYTHING can be essential.. >.<

oh.. and i placed into French 201 if i decide to take a french course.. WOOOTS.. second level french.. =D *MEGA GRIN..*

Okay back to packing.

NanaBanana is Back to Packing the Essentials ;)

ZzzZzzzz

I must....s.t.a.y...a.......w....a.......k......ee

Wow.. So They ARE Human....

So I have always this huge celebrity-crush on Joshua Ang from "I Not Stupid" movies.. He's so charming.. =D

And one day being such a stalker, I googled him.. and I stumbled across his blog..

You know how we always idolize and immortalize and put celebrities on a pedestal? well, I do anyway.. but.

The cool thing is reading celebrities' blogs make you remember that they too are only human.. that they too go through the same dilemmas that we "laymen" go through -- the struggle of being a good child, the hardships of dating, the heartbreak, birth, and death.. We tend to forget (unless it's Brangelina and their goodness-knows-how-many- children) that celebrities have families of their own to contend to, diapers to change.. (POSSIBLY) and late nights to contend with..

So I guess my point of this whole rant thanks to Joshua Ang's blog is.. celebrities are only human.. They get parking tickets too! =D

On a more personal note.. i slept soundly.. SO soundly last night.. after being awake for more than.. 30 hours.. yikes.. that's alot.. yeap.. The last time I slept was from 11 am to 4pm Tuesday afternoon.. and I took a short nap which was NOT fun being woken up from let me tell you that..

so basically i slept like a baby last night.. getting up at 3am for a milk-call.. well sort of.. My baby sister was online.. so I talked to her for a while.. We have been having separation issues since I left but I think we're doing ok.. right babe? and then my Mi.. but I told them I should probably go back to bed.. and so i went back to bed at 6 and got up at 10.30.. Not bad ey?

I have a crap load of stuff to do today.. so I am going to deal with those.. but for your reading pleasure.. Here's a link to Joshua Ang's blog..

http://www.nutzhen.com

NanaBanana has to Sort Through Material Goods that Make Up her Life..

Of All Things I Miss

I can't sleep

I can't make myself stop crying

I can't make myself stop missing you all

I can't stop wanting to be home

NanaBanana's Heart is At Home

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAO BEI MOMMYY!!!

Dear Mommy,


Happy Birthday to you! I wish I could be home to celebrate it with you.. But we already celebrated together the other day at Sugimoto right? So I guess it is okay..


Just wanted to let you know that I love you more than anything in the world. You and Daddy make the best parents in the world and I dont wish for anyone else to be my parents besides both of you.


Thank you for all the things you have done for me and Jie and Babe.. like caning us when we were naughty.. reprimanding us when we were in the wrong.. ferrying us to tuition.. giving support when needed.. and giving the love that you give.. Thank you for being my Mi..


If you want me to start extolling your virtues.. until tomorrow oso tak habis.. I wanted to wish you Happy Birthday today but then I set my alarm at 12.45 instead of 11.45.. FAIL.. but nemind.. I will call you again later..


Take care Mi.. I will see you either next year or in 2 years.. I love you!




Love,
Nana



NanaBanana Wishes Mi a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye My Friend, You Have Been the One For Me

I'm back in the United States..

Raw emotions and tears run freely whilst I'm here..

I think the second time around is harder. because you remember what you have been missing out at home for such a long time.. and when you remember.. it's harder to let go..

Like this time when i went home.. I remembered the warmth of a mother, the support of a dad, the closeness of a sister and the feeling of being home.. the nagging of the parents.. the annoying-ness of a sister.. and the unrelentless barking of a dog all sum up to make the house I live in a home..

So much has changed since i last saw home.. the furniture has changed.. the lifestyle has somewhat evolved but what makes the house a home has not.. it will probably stay the same till the end of my life..

So many things were said that should have been left unsaid.. Too many things that should have been said were left unsaid.. but isn't that the nature of life..

I am sooo groggy right now.. I look at pics and the pillow where i lay my head becomes water-logged.. the spot where i wipe my nose from and tears start to feel raw.. the tears on my pillow will dry.. and my skin will start to feel normal again.. but the longing in my heart to go home and STAY home.. is going to be here a while..

NanaBanana Misses Mi, Old Bean, Guan Zhi, Floss and all her cousins, aunty uncles, friends and those who are not mentioned.. =(